Just for Fun

I was tagged!
I read this on Annie's blog and thought it looked fun. So, here's a few snippets about me:

What was I doing~-10 years ago: Hmmm...I was probably going to girl's camp about this time. It was my second or third year and I was finally to the point where there were some newbies below me to give the dirty work to. Good times!

-5 years ago: Five years ago would have been my freshman year of college. I was finally starting to recover from sending my boyfriend off on a mission and was loving life taking tonz of classes and partying all night with my crazy roommates.

-5 months ago: January...I was just getting back from Christmas break and trying to get back in the swing of things. My students were driving me crazy, but I was enjoying hanging out with some new friends in my branch.

5 things on my to do list for today:
1- Study my scriptures
2- Take a nap
3- Write in my journal
4- Study up on Pres. Monson, as per Pres. Simpson's counsel
5- Write to my missionary brother and sister

5 snacks I enjoy:
1-Popcorn (extra buttery!)
2- Fresh pineapple
3- Garden cucumbers
4- Warm bread
5- Cheese and pickles

5 things I would do if I was suddenly a billionare
1- Furnish my classroom with a laptop for every student
2- Pay off my car/student loan
3- Buy a house with a back yard and pasture so I could have a dog and a horse
4- Create my very own library
5- Take each of my siblings for a special day where we could do anything they wanted

5 of my bad habits:
1- Speeding
2- Eating more than I should
3- Spending too much time online
4- Trying to do everything all at once
5- Worrying about what other people think


5 jobs I have had:
1- Ranch hand
2- Daycare aide
3- Custodian
4- Waitress
5- High School Teacher

5 things you don't know about me:
1-I HATE tomatoes
2- I am probably one of the healthiest people you've ever met (no broken bones, surgeries, still have my appendix and tonsils, no stitches, etc.)
3- I would rather sit in a pasture full of horses than do just about anything else (they have a very calming effect on me)
4- I was team captain of the 2nd place Scholastic Bowl team at the Idaho state tournament
5- I was painfully shy clear through about my junior year of high school

Tag, you're it!

Anger Update

To All My Kind Friends:

I would like to thank you for your thoughtfulness. I am feeling much better. It was late at night after a bad day and I, like most writers, elaborated on the situation. :) I was in a foul mood, but everyone has those moments, and you can't keep me down for long.

I'm learning lately how silly it is to make a big deal of little things. Why make a mountain out of a molehill? I have the feeling moles would be kind of fun to watch. Oh, and if you happen to run into a mountain, make sure to take a picture from the top for me.

I love you all! To quote a poet in disguise, "Keep ya head up!" - Tupac Shakur

Anger Fades to Optimism

Tonight I'm angry. I'm a frustrated, throw things at the wall, yell and scream type of angry. I don't know whether to break something or cry. I want to drive my car really fast and say what's on my mind no matter what the results might be. My playlist right now includes Linkin Park, Simple Plan, Bush, and Hoobastank.

The interesting thing about this is that I do it to myself. It would take about one sentence to end it all. "Get out of my life." That's it. That is all I would have to say. I know, you're wondering why I don't just say it and move on with life. I guess it's because anything involving emotion is never that simple. The things that make me the most frustrated are usually closely tied to the things that make me the most happy. Strange isn't it? The people I care about the most are the ones who can make me lose it.

I've come to this conclusion: If they make your stomach twist into knots and are constantly in your thoughts; watch out! Caring means hurting. Yet in the words of Alfred Lord Tennyson:

I hold it true, whate'er befall;

I feel it, when I sorrow most;

'Tis better to have loved and lost

Than never to have loved at all.

So here's to all the ups and downs. I'm told I'll be a better person because of it. I'm crying and screaming into my pillow right now, but when it all straightens out it will have been worth it. I'll look back on the good times and be glad I played the game.